LAST NIGHT I DREAMED ABOUT JOSH. I SAW HIS FACE SO CLEARLY, BUT FOR SOME REASON HE WOULDN'T LOOK AT ME. I WONDER IF ITS BECAUSE I FEEL GUILTY CAUSE I SAID I COULDN'T STAND TO LOOK AT HIM, BUT I DID LOOK AT HIM AND IT WAS SO AWFUL THAT IT DID NOT LOOK LIKE HIM AT ALL. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN MORTIFIED THAT EVERYONE COULD SEE HIM LIKE THAT. MAYBE THAT'S WHY HE WOULDN'T LOOK AT ME CAUSE HE KNOWS EVERYONE SAW HIM THAT WAY AND HE'S UPSET WITH US. IF THAT'S IT I HOPE HE REALIZES THAT IT HELPED HIS DADDY TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM. I CAN ONLY HOPE AND PRAY THAT YOU ARE RESTING IN PEACE JOSH, SAFE AND PAIN FREE NOW.